Reality

I know it has been a long time since I have posted an update. Honestly we have been taking some time to adjust to the reality Metisha is facing. The last two chemo drugs have not worked in her liver. The cancer has gotten must worse. Metisha is experiencing a lot of pain and is extremely fatigued and exhausted. The cancer is destroying her body and there are no medical tools left to fight against it. The reality is Metisha is now starting her journey to her forever home and we have to say goodbye for now.


I know these words are painful to read. I have cried over them for days. I have struggled with what to say and how to say it and when to say it. I don’t understand why Metisha, why cancer, why at her age, why … The only thing I know for certain is this goodbye is not forever. This goodbye is really a “see you later”. Metisha will be fully restored in heaven and her loving Father and Savior is there waiting for her. And someday I will be with her there too.

We don’t know if we are left with weeks or months. Her doctors have contacted MD Andersen and they have no treatment options for her because of the current state of her liver. She is seeing a doctor in Dallas on Wednesday who specializes in late stage terminal cancer. We do not know if she will have any options for Metisha but we are praying that she is either God’s miracle of a cure or the doctor will say there is nothing she can do. We don’t want Metisha to have to endure another treatment that provides no results.  Pray for wisdom and clarity for Mark and Metisha when they visit with the doctor on Wednesday. 

I know you all love Metisha and want to hug her and tell her you love her. But saying goodbye through the tears over and over again is just too hard for her and she simply does not have the physical strength or emotional strength to endure the goodbyes. We need you to respect Metisha’s wishes and need for privacy during this time. I know you want her to know how much you love her so please send her cards and letters but do not visit or call her. Please understand that she loves you dearly and is so thankful for you constant prayers and support. She knows how much she is loved, but she needs to limit her precious time left to our immediately family only.

Metisha is at peace. She is sad for all that she will miss but is ready to be healthy and whole again. As her family, we cannot begin to imagine life on earth without her, but we too are ready for her to be free of the cancer and free of the suffering. She is an amazing person who has touched more lives than we will ever know. Her spirit and attitude is so contagious that this world will not be as bright of a place with her gone.

We cannot say thank you enough for all that you have done for Metisha and our family over the past four years. I can say with 100% certainty that God has used you to comfort us and we know that when we arrive at the other side of this journey, you will still be there providing that comfort.

We don’t want to spend our last days on Earth with Metisha in total sadness and are fighting to have happy and joyful moments. And of course Metisha’s attitude and spirit often makes that possible! She told Mom people should send her flowers now instead of to her funeral because she can’t enjoy them when she’s dead! Of course she was kidding!

Please know that we still believe God can perform a miracle and if that miracle happens, it will be certain that it is all God! But while we never give up hope, we have to prepare ourselves for her passing. Please continue to pray with us that Metisha will be relived from the pain and for peace and strength for Metisha and Mark and their families as we travel to the end of this journey.